knock me down

i hate this album, but i love it. it reminds me of gary. i don't want to think about him. i don't mind actually, it doesn't really bother me when he comes to mind. what does bother me is when i remember how that made me feel. it was the worst. tragic almost. i had details in the notepad in my first G1. it was broken, or lost. i don't remember which. i was sad when i lost it, because it was great writing. but later i realized that i needed to lose it. all of it. nobody needed to read it. not even me. how the hell did that happen? seems like a dream. a bad one, lol. mkay, i'm done.