expect the best, prepare for the worst...

since im blogging for me, hello self:)

now..some twists and turns have taken place in ninaland since the last time i decided to blog. another chapter closed, so subsequently another opens.
i always used to say that there werent many things that could surprise me, but the things going on definitely threw me for a loop. i wouldnt say that i was surprised, just disappointed honestly. as if there wasnt already enough going on, you know? you dont heal a wound by throwing salt on it. i mean this shit was big chunks of sea salt. i shouldnt have expected much from the pre-adolescent, after all this individual owed me not a thing. that doesnt mean its okay, it just means that aspect of it all was the least hurtful. but i definitely expected a whole lot more from the person who is supposed to protect me, defend me, love me, have MY back. i mean, i would never even consider doing something like that to someone i say i love. is it too much to ask to expect the same in return? why is that so rare? to love and be loved. to respect and be respected.
i thank Allah that i am not vindictive or vengeful. alhamdulillah that i am able to let things go because if not i would be one big bag of sour candy.
at the end of it all, i find that it is another beginning. i paid for a life lesson with my time and energy, but its just another thing to keep me on my toes. im happy with where i am, the people i am with, and the decision that i have made. what i am NOT happy with is people being so DAMN nosy. MIND YOUR OWN! lol

on another note, there are some interesting things unfolding. lets see where this is headed.....

Umar, may Allah bless you with jannah, make your grave spacious, and bless your good deeds to perpetuate until the last day..AMIN

next blog may be resolutions, lol. should be interesting.

signing out...nina faith